i should really live closer to town.
gas is a bitch and i need a place of my own....

The feeling did go away, to a degree.
I hate it when my horoscopes are right. Its never right about the good things which is gay.
Either way, today I work at 6. finally I have a day to myself. I don't have to go work in the kitchen at 9 in the morning and prep everything the closers didn't get to along with everything else that needs to be prepped to open the restauraunt.

I applied for a day job at the Inn of Brevard, house keeping. They are starting at $9.00 an hour, which is two dollars more than i make cooking at Casey's. For less work. There are only like 15 rooms at this Inn and refreshing those rooms along with dusting as sweeping other parts of the Inn would be it. Plus, its more upscale and the quality of people that go there are not the kind to leave condoms all over the rooms or poo smeared on the walls like you can get in some corporate hotel chains.

Now something is missing and i do know what it is, but there is no time to dwell on it. I have no control over the situation so best to just let it be. I need to worry about other things as well.

So. I'm sitting at the library because one of my network cables at home are unplugged..... or so the computer says, even though everything is plugged up.... I'm pissed off at myself.
I am lacking many things right now i think.
But its all good.
Life goes on =D

Worked today. I am really starting to hate Ryan. He acts like such a prick. That could be because I'm no good at stuff and he is agrivated since I've been at Casey's a while. But I've been bounced around that restaraunt soo many times that i don't know much about any one job description in there.
I'm best at serving and hosting though.
The kitchen sucks it out of you. Never is there anything done and i only work in the mornings. I really respect the cooks a bit more now. But at the same time, it wouldn't take so much work if everyone just did everything they were supposed to. But no one ever does.

I am very frustrated. This feeling needs to go away. I do not like it one bit.

Its always the same story every Easter Sunday, which is why i don't understand people that never go to church feeling obligated to go on holidays. You just hear the same thing over and over instead of different sermons that might make one think of something new.
Why did Jesus come to his conclusions about Christianity?
He lived in the middle of the desert where moldy grain became LSD.
Thats my opinion at least.

Anything that makes someone think very hard about new things can lead to social revolutions, and psychodellic drugs tend to have that tendency.

"Hey John man, you should totally baptise me!!"
"Dude. If your sure."
"Yea man, lets do it!"
"This is the greatest idea ever dude!!!"

And Jesus was dunked under water by a mountain man and friend named John the Baptist.

Hippies are predictable sometimes. Other times they are not at all, because they become individuals again and have their own motives and feelings.
hmmmmm.
i have something to do. now to figure out what.

It takes very little for people to end up telling you everything you need to know. It also takes just the right amount of common sense when to not push something or someone.
Sometimes I am lacking and sometimes i am right on the money.

Tonight was horrible for tips all around. But i made lasagna earlier this morning. I can't figure out why an absolutely wonderful soup yesterday was extremely salty this morning. All we did was re-heat it. Even though it was too salty, I couldn't stop eating it. Maybe i have a salt difficiency. I need to start taking calcium supplements again.

My spelling has declined over the years.

I have everything I need for blowing glass except for the gases now.
The books are really interesting and I'm going to be glad to make more than just bowls. I will make many many pipes though. Nothing too special at first. Gold and Silver dusts are really expensive....

I've learned a lot of trivia lately.
I need a push in my life. From myself. I will do something i love and i will love doing it. I know its possible to be very content with one's spot in life. It is also very possible to understand oneself and grow up and learn from what happens and take responsiblity for oneself.

Still need to start ebaying.

the full moon is so bright outside my window.
watched reefer madness the musical again tonight. While being a very funny parody, it is definately not the best movie ever..... Although John seemed to think that it really was.

Today/night was interesting... maybe its cause of the moon... Maybe its just cause things tend to work out that way, but either way, I love certain things about my life and then i hate certain aspects of those things i love almost as much as i love the initial thing.

I think its cause i can't understand them, and that scares me a little bit....
I need to start working on my credit.

i like getting slightly messed up and just kinda chillin.
i think I will be getting a new part time job to fill hours and bring in money. Blockbuster here I hopefully come.
yo. I miss shit sometimes.

Today started out unproductive.
I skipped out on work. Was going to jump off a waterfall and then almost got the most awesome pitt bull stray ever.
Looked like a pure red nose. Beautiful dog.
Long story short, by the time I convinced my parents to let me keep it for a trial run, it had already found a home. =(
meh.
i liked today. I miss days like today. I'm glad it happened.

Tommorrow I'll likely go back to doing nothing again. Well, nothing that i really want to do, I'll be more productive in a way... but still.... e_e I suck. lol.

yep.
too good to be true.

But summer is coming up. It'll be ok.

Sometimes the days blend into one. And sometimes they are pristine and long and different from one another.

I may be a stoner but I still have great ideas sometimes and I can explain life much more clearly to myself.

Things that should be common sense to everyone... or at least seem to be... are hard for me to grasp onto. Like socializing "the right way". Things always go good for me in the beginning but then I lose it.... most always. That is just an example though.
When i have time to myself and something stimulating or new that i did not know before to think about, and i smoke a joint or have previously smoked with people... I discover soo many new things for myself.

I love watching discovery stoned off my ass.
Or the history channel.