Alright.... now its starting to bother me a little bit..

maybe if I smoke a bunch more it won't....

yo. I don't blow things out of wack. You do cause you still expect me to blow shit out of whack. w/e man.

I got to fuckin wait tables tonight!!!! Got $40 in tips in under 4 hours. sooooo... makin 2.75 an hour... thats like.... $14.70 an hour. sweeeeeeet!

I loved watching dook run around in the woods today. He was sooooo fucking excited about everything. kept pulling me into the playing =D running up to me and spinning around and running away again reeeeally fast, coming back and turning a full circle and running away again =) it was so cute. He's a real putze though. He kept accidentally falling in water too deep for him and freaking out til he got back to the edge of the water and would be afraid of getting too close for like a minute and then he'd do it all over again.

Hopefully some good pictures came out of it.

One lazy summer at a festival
In open air, not in a concerthall
No way (no way)
A spacy mushroom landed in your mouth
You couldn't tell the north from the south
No way (no way)



Lords of Acid

And then my shuffle immediately plays "Get Ready" by Sublime.

Some folks say that smokin herb is a crime
If they catch you smokin they're bound to drop the dime
Insufferable Informable Crazy fools
Wait with their fingers crossed for you to break the rules

lol thats soo great.

BWAM!

found out my boss has been keeping shifts from me.
so i told my other boss
She said she'd fix that.

Now the one boss is putting me in the kitchen....
Even though the reason she didn't want me picking up shifts is cause she doesn't want to lose money....
I'm a better server...
I know how to do that....

Your just going to be teaching me in the kitchen and it'll take longer....

i took her kids to the movies tonight to suck up..

i need to smoke!!!

Its funny that the only songs that ever come on right before you get out of your car after a drive of "just ok" music are the ones that you really want to listen too....
Whats funnier is that for me its normally a guilty pleasure kind of song and it sucks ass but i still love it secretly....

I have to come up with a bunch of interesting four letter words to use for my blog link on myspace.... for some wierd reason the font html won't cooperate and I'm waaaay to stoned and lazy to do anything about it.

HA-HA!

Ghost

you know I've never seen Ghost. Heard sooo much about it but never watched it. I love when old movies come on basic cable late at night.
i won't lie, I'm a girl and I cried a little bit... but sweet jesus.... if thats what happens when bad people die.... creepy black shadows tear them apart and drag then to the netherworld... I better be good in life... cause goddamn...

whoopi goldberg is so funny sometimes. but i don't like her standup..

I was sitting there laughing to myself and i heard the rain on the tin roof outside. i love thunderstorms right before I go to sleep. Or right after a thunderstorm during the summer. It smells so good.

If I fall back down
Your gonna help me back up again
If I fall back down
Your gonna be my friend.

i like that song. good song.

Coming home tonight at 2 in the morning I pass two different people I know that i really didn't think would be out on the road this late on a Saturday... But then again, it is a Saturday.

I don't work again til tuesday and it depresses me. Whats worse is that i don't get a check til next monday. oh well. I'll piece together some moneys when i needs them.

Town's dry as a bone. Sucks balls.

I know I'm appreciated and cared about. But goddamn. I'm tired of fucking bullshit and thats all it ever fuckin is.

list

I really need to stop staying up til 4 in the morning and then sleeping til 2 in the afternoon. I also need to go get a shower. hardcore.
List it:
- clean my room (will get around to it.....
- go to the forest and take pictures.
- find stuff to get into
- get more hours at work
- see my tj at some point
- get a dog

i want this one.
Dogue Brasileiro
Its a mix between a boxer and a pitt. Mixing it with the boxer illeviates many of the mean tendencies of a pitt and makes it easier to train.

or this one.

American Mastiff.
i really like big dogs.

day

Looking through storage brings back sooo many memories. I've been getting shit together to take to the flea market. I found my old nick-knacks from 4 or 5 years ago up in the shop.
AND!!!
I found the bird leg.
fuckin sweet.

I worked a nice long shift tonight. I love working when Allison is bartending. She is so fucking great. She is goofy and crazy and always has a good story. Plus she lets us get away with hell. Except in the kitchen. She's constantly writing the poor boys up for stupid shit they try and pull.

I am starting to get pissed off... A shift I was supposed to cover was given to someone else because they needed hours more than I do. e_e That is bullshit. I just wanted one damn serving shift... but noooooooo.

Mmmm. Nahunta Barbeque. Best fuckin barbeque and sausage and all around pork products ever.

yo

Sometimes even though words are unsaid people can do the sweetest things. I love it when you get completely and utterly blown away by someone else's actions. When you had no idea they would do something sweet and without even really doing anything everything that needs doing is done and over with.

fuckin' A right.

So i clocked in to work for 15 minutes to clock back out and eat a burger and clock back in for another 45 minutes til i was told it was way too slow and i had to leave. But i did get a shift for saturday!! yayyyy serving!!!

I hope everything isn't about to blow up in my face.....

left-overs

My mother leaves the best left-overs for me to come home and have the munchies for. She's the bestest mother in the whole wide world.

I am very glad she does that as there is no where in town to eat after 1'oclock in the morning except for the 24 hour Ingles. Literally... not even a Huddle House.. or a sleezy Chinese Restauraunt.

Tonight she left me cream of chicken macaroni. Comfort food.

I work tommorrow!! Voluum... which means I could work for anywhere from 0 - 4 hours. Depending on how slow it is.

At least not really having a job this time of year in this town has taught me that I need to save extra money for winter in case of lay-offs and such.... Tourist town that i am in. . . You would think there would be a little more opportunity it being a college town too... but not really.

Living Now.

There are benefits and disadvantages. Living now makes it easier to not stress about the future. Living now makes you want what you want when you want it with no regard to how getting that now will effect you later on. Makes you spend money you don't have. Not go to work and get fired and not have a job to make it further down the road.

While many people need to remember they have the rest of their lives to do whatever they want... they still need to worry about now.

Colorquiz.com

Well... i suppose this is pretty close........When it comes to describing my personality that is:

Your Existing Situation
Persistent. Demands what she feels to be her due and endeavors to maintain her position intact.
Your Stress Sources
Feels that life has far more to offer and that there are still important things to be achieved--that life must be experienced to the fullest. As a result, she pursues her objectives with a fierce intensity that will not let go of things. Becomes deeply involved and runs the risk of being unable to view things with sufficient objectivity, or calmly enough; is therefore in danger of becoming agitated and of exhausting her nervous energy. Cannot leave things alone and feels she can only be at peace when she has finally reached her goal.
Your Restrained Characteristics
Able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity but is inclined to be emotionally withdrawn, which prevents her from becoming deeply involved.
Conditions are such that she will not let herself become intimately involved without making mental reservations.
Your Desired Objective
Seeks success, stimulation, and a life full of experience. Wants to develop freely and to shake off the shackles of self-doubt, to win, and to live intensely. Likes contacts with others and is enthusiastic by nature. Receptive to anything new, modern, or intriguing; has many interests and wants to expand her fields of activity. Optimistic about the future.
Your Actual Problem
The fear that she might be prevented from achieving the things she wants leads her to play her part with an urgent and hectic intensity.

I do not think that i put quite that much emphasis on winning and success though...

Music

Sometimes Pandora.com has the best song ideas ever and turns me on to new artists that i like a whole whole lot. But that seems to happen ever so rarely. Everything else it gives out either SUCK ASS or do not corrolate in anyway whatsoever to what your trying to find songs like.

But the band I found today, while looking for songs like "waiting for my ruca" by sublime, have some pretty cool songs. OPM is the band name. They don't really sound that much like sublime at all but some songs are pretty damn nice. The keyword being some.

There aren't really that many bands where all of their songs are really great though. The only bands that i really really like almost every single song they ever did are like the old Legends. Like the Beatles, and many would say pink floyd.

But then again many haven't heard some of the really really wacked out stuff pink floyd put out.

I've also always really liked Sublime. I'm down with any of their songs. Just not all of them all of the time... or just the popular ones over and over. I really hate that Bradley died =( i want more to hear new Sublime songs... But that is impossible.

Other things musically that i like a lot.....:

• Most 90's Alternative.
• MSI, even though the new cd is different I like it as much as the other and can listen to it more often.
• Psychopathic Records. Most Music like that. Everything from ICP to Twizted to Boondox to Tech N9ne and beyond
• I also have my girlish guilty pleasures like Shakira and certain happy hard-core groups.
• The Spun Soundtrack.

I'm probably leaving out a lot due to stonedness... But yea =D

I fuckin love most music man.

Now

Waking up at one in the afternoon to be on suicide watch. I've been under it... but that was never serious. I don't know if this is or not. Either way. Sometimes dreams are weird and i hope they never come true. Others I wish and wish they will.

drink of choice. dr. pepper or fruit punch.

I need to go make more cookies.

ohh! and go get my check. I hope it amounts to something... I work two days this week.. I really hope they start giving me more hours soon...I need them. I like working at Casey Jones. Its the most laid back atmosphere I've found in this town. I don't want to go somewhere else just because i have to start paying bills. =(

I should also really really clean my room... its starting to grow things.

Here

This is a blog. This is the first post of this blog. This is seperate from all of my other online community bullshit..... Although all of my friends from other such things may read as they wish. This is a fresh start and a new idea. This may become small amounts of income... i don't really know.

Today my brother, at the age of 16, decided that he was responsible for my fathers suicidal tendencies and in 20 degree weather went to the non-insulated shop and sat there for and hour and a half in his night clothes, did not tell my frantic mother where he was, and she woke me up and had me hiking all over the mountain looking for him an hour before he had to get to work. This was only three hours after i had fallen asleep for the first time in probably 20 some odd hours.

I like things. I like art, black and white photography, glass pipes, big dogs, cabins in the woods with heating, water and electrical, co-workers and my job, animals in general, camping.
I love things as well. I love the southern appalachian mountains, the pisgah national forest, a funny boy, my family, the funny boy's family.

When it gets warmer I plan on going up into the forest and taking tons and tons of pictures... black and white and digital. I need a new digital camera, but that can be arranged. i just need to win a photo contest on a site i found. When the time comes i will leave the link on my blog for everyone to see and vote on. I will show everyone the beauty of the parkway and the mountains I live in. It is really a passion for me I think.